My sister told me I should never have children!
I can’t help it if I was raised in an environment that made bullying natural to me! I remember banging clear envelopes on the innocent heads of my preschool classmates (male ones at that!), stealing cookies from unsuspecting lunch boxes during grade school playtime, and horrible horrible things in high school, like refusing to give Jaye her brownies/marshmallows and giving everyone else a piece, or laughing hysterically at physically challenged kids when they eat or play sports (AHEM SANDIE LOW). I never realized that I’d carry it out through and through. Even in college, at times I let the fun of bullying take control over me (will not define how this time, forgive me, rest assured its subtle, and not of the kid-in-the-trashcan-sort). Michael has undoubtedly experienced my tyranny, and willingly complies by carrying all my stuff, or taking that extra mile to save me from having to do it myself (Sorry!). Gosh, I’ve even passed it on to Gavin! Now, Gavin is very easily frightened, especially by rough things and most recently, the Christmas tree. But, despite knowing that, I just can’t help bringing him to it and laughing as I watch him squirm around in fear. (KILL ME! IM HORRIBLE!) Actually, It’s not as bad as it sounds, I do damage control right afterwards, so that’s got to count for something. I’m just scared that next halloween, he might dress up as me and start terrorizing little children. I DIE!
Well, the bullying has got to stop sometime, and I’ve decided that right after this “Backpacking through Mindanao” trip (what a lie), I will stop (or try to, at least). So as soon as I get back to Cebu on Saturday, I will be the sweetest little darling you’ve ever met. Out with the old, and in with the new!