To all my OG blog readers that are still with me today- aloha! I’m still alive! I know I don’t update you guys via “Kryz Homilies” as much these days, but today, I felt like turning off the camera, and grabbing my keyboard instead. Feels good to be back to a more comfortable medium!
A few days ago, I was with some of my relatives that I hadn’t seen in quite some time and they all flocked around me in a circle and asked me a myriad of questions about my upcoming wedding and home. “Who’s making your dress?,” “Is it sponsored?,” Where are you having the wedding?,” When?,” “How about the entourage,?” The Cake?,” “Decor?” It went on and on and on, and I found myself slowly inching myself behind my dad in a sad effort to conceal myself. Why? I felt so incredibly self conscious at all this attention given to me. Now that’s a statement you wouldn’t normally expect from an Instagrammer/Youtuber.
For someone who posts so much of herself online, asking people to notice, it would seem like I’d already be used to this. My relatives thought it was so weird that I couldn’t handle their attention, when in fact so many people give me that same attention a thousandfold every single day. But then I realized- I was a blogger first, social media content creator/influencer/youtuber/online persona second. I don’t do it for the attention, and I never did.
When I started blogging 9 years ago (OMG a moment of silence for my rapidly declining youth, please), I did it for myself, even when no one was watching. When people around school started to notice my blog, I did it because I liked sharing my experiences and my outfits. I did it becuase I genuinely enjoyed it and because I knew that no matter what judgements people had about my posts, at the end of the day, I was still me, in my bed, wearing my PJs, typing up words on my laptop.
Fast forward to close to a decade later, and here we are. Im guessing (correct me if I’m wrong) that most of the people reading this right now have seen the growth from teeny bopper kryz to tita kryz, and have come along and grown with me. If I’m right- hugs to you and thanks for sticking around all these years! If I’m wrong- welcome to my blog!!! I used to write essays here every single day! (I also really abuse my exclamation points and parentheses)
I can’t believe I used to write about my outfits (complete with detail shots) every single day- before OOTDs were even a thing. I mean… HOW OLD AM I??? And now, I can’t even be bothered to wear heels unless its a very very very VERY special occasion. I used to NEVER leave the house without make up (even when we went on beach trips or even to the gym!), and now, I only wear make up when I absolutely have to, or when I’m shooting some new content. My my how things have changed.
So here’s my life update: I’m on my 28th year on this planet, lazy AF when it comes to getting glammed up or impressing people, and 10x more at peace with myself than ever before. I am engaged to the love of my life, and spending weekends shopping for home furniture and bar carts that cost waaay too much. I’ve learned that it’s best to travel comfortably- even if that means spending a bit more, and travelling to less places. Spending on comfort and experiences > bags or shoes (please file under: things I wish I knew when I was 20). I enjoy healthy cafes and poke bowls and haven’t had fast food willingly in years. I like coffee. A lot of it. (And I’m a bad b*tch in the morning if I don’t get my breakfast and coffee in- so sue me.) I turn off my phone after my last posts and hardly ever scroll through my social media feed (unless I feel like giving my friends a liking spree! We all need a boost of affirmation sometimes!) Family and friends come first, everything else comes second. My eyesight is becoming worse and worse- so forgive me if I don’t see you and say hi- I’m blind without glasses. I’ve learned the art of not giving a f*ck, especially when it comes to a.) people I don’t care about, b.) things I can’t control. Therefore, you may all welcome a new and improved zen Kryz. I really don’t crack under pressure (Thank you Mr. Mark Manson, and Mr. Eckhart Tolle) I work 60% of the day, read 5% of the day, have me time (gym/snacks/pamper myself) 5% of the day, spend time with friends and family for the rest.
I am so contented with my life, I can’t even begin to ask for anything else. And yes, I feel #blessed AF.
I wonder though, have you guys changed too?
Let me know what your life updates are! Be as honest and as raw as possible. I’d appreciate the weird bits too! Missed you guys!